A 'life' roller coaster

If life were to be a roller coaster, I will definitely say I am at the lowest end now. My life had been by-passing very quickly, regardless it being the sweetest or the worst. I don't really know how to decribe my current feeling but I am sure that it is diastrous. Filled with anger, sorrows, disappointed and etc.

Are they trying their best? Or it is purely our fault? We didn't did it on purpose and does that means that we don't deserve a second chance? I thought it is to be said that "Everyone do make mistakes and everyone do deserve a second chance?" But eventually, I don't receive it now. Are we just like one that had offended a serious crime and the penaty is death? Although you all said we are receiving the least we could have, but I don't feel it. I simply feel that you are forcing us to our last grasp of breath. I finally can't hide this issue away anymore. I finally couldn't take it anymore. I need a break to this, I can't endure this fear anymore. It's bringing me down, it's marking me down.

Things aren't the same anymore. Things are getting from bad to worst. Everything seems so out of control. What should I do? What can I do? Why not an angel appear and guide me through. Tell me the way, that will be best for you and me. We had did our best, but nothing is working out well. Tell me, what's more could be done? I'm seriously at the verge of falling. I'm at the verge of breaking down. Jumping off a building helps? I'm going insane...