Life and Death

People come in and out of our life frequently. Some in the sense of not in good terms, but some is due to death.

Death is a very common thing as there will be people leaving to the new world every single day. When the time is up, you have to go, no one can stop you from going. For some, they leave peacefully but there are some, who have to go through operation and spent huge amount of money before they leave.

In my family, I have one that left at the age of 103 years. Her last path is walked with a huge number of her offspring. There were 7 generations of offspring to walk this last journey with her. Yes, she was one of the luckier ones. The candle lighted for her has to be red, same goes to the joss-stick. In her funeral, no one is suppose to cry to be exact. It should be a happy thing for her. Well, I was too young to know anything back then. I only saw her photos before. According to my daddy, he said that was the last time we actually sees our family in whole. Some were from China and some were from Malaysia. No absentee, all present.

When I was 4, I lost my grandfather. He is a strong man, he is one that I respected most. He was also one that I regretted the most. Deep in my mind, I will always remember. That year's CNY, daddy brought me to his place for a visiting(well, my granny and grandpa has divorced when my daddy is still a teenager). FYI, I will always cry when the place is very humid as I am scared for sweating. Yes, we were just at the door, and I started crying. We went in and my grandpa gave us red-packet and ask us to leave as I can't stop crying. That was the last time I have impression of him and that is also the only memory I have of him. To be honest, I really miss this grandpa a lot. I will always ask daddy about him and yes, it had been 13 years already.

Coming down will be my great-grandfather, great-grandmother, grand-aunt and the recent great-grandmother.

After losing this recent one, one thing came into my senses. The next generation that will be leaving will be my grandparents already. I know when they were to leave one day, I will sure breakdown and cry till very badly. They are those who are close to me and watch me grow up.

I was having lunch with granny and I told her this, "If you were to leave us one day, don't just leave like that. Must talk to us and tell us your last wish first. If not, I will sure have a lot to ask and when I speak to you, I wouldn't know will you be able to hear." When she hears all these, she teared. Everyone knows, I love her the most.

I just want to treasure as much as I can when they are all still with me. I guess that is all I can do now.