Thoughts

"Being independent and not rely on anyone."

Since young, I was being taught to be independent in everything I do. I make my own decisions and I have to answer for every decision I made. In my world of life, I am always yearning for perfection. In everything I do, I would never allow any inch of mistakes. To be serious, being a perfectionist is never easy. You will ending up realizing you have shit piling up awaiting for you to amend till the result you are looking for.

In that little mind of mine, I would wish to get hold of everything in hand. Who succeeded? I wonder. But anyway, I failed.

Some mates told me to just tried my best and I can let others know that at least I tried. But deep down in my thought, it is not convincing enough for me. If I have to do, I will do till my very best, if not, I will simply leave it aside.

In life, there are ups and downs. I would say, "not everyday is Sunday." I might be slowly climbing up to cloud nine but the very next moment, I am being whack down to the six feet under. No one will be able to predict what is oncoming so the best solution is to be prepared all of the time. In my sea of thoughts, I would be telling myself to do whichever thing to the fullest in order not to have any chance to feel regretful.

No one's life is perfect but you are able to make those imperfect, perfect.

Xoxo,

Janice