what had been done, can't be undone.
to people who care, i truly appreciate it.
all these days, thanks for being by my side.
consecutively reminding me to be strong.
in front of some, i might be as usual as always but deep down inside,
it is killing me strong.

what the people from the higher level had said really strikes me till today.
i dare not hear, i dare not look back.
my mind is having the ever constant tinger recalling whatever had been said.
i know i am in wrong,
i know i have myself to be blame.
i dare not look up as i didn't uphold whatever i earned.
i lose it all and its down right into the drain.
although i didn't regret for whatever i did as i had gained experiences and something great,
but the disappointment is still pretty high.

being part of the family is awesome,
but when you know you are to blame for causing troubles to the big family,
the feeling is sure stabbing in and out.
i hate danglings feeling.
yes, i know i am still part of it but i know i had did something wrong which caused me not know how to face it.

tell me what can be done.
trust me, its never easy and its tiring.
please let me go.
i'm dread...